Pretty Ugly

Please do injoy this amazing read, for it holds some profound wisdom when read properly. I look forward to any comments you may have regarding this poem titled, Pretty Ugly.


Pretty Ugly
by Abdullah Shoaib

I’m very ugly
So don’t try to convince me that
I am a very beautiful person
Because at the end of the day
I hate myself in every single way
And I’m not going to lie to myself by saying
There is beauty inside of me that matters
So rest assured I will remind myself
That I am a worthless, terrible person
And nothing you say will make me believe
I still deserve love
Because no matter what
I am not good enough to be loved
And I am in no position to believe that
Beauty does exist within me
Because whenever I look in the mirror I always think
Am I as ugly as people say?

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      • Good thought….but, then wouldn’t that ruin the surprise ending?

        I sent this to “Bob” at about the time he was told he had 6 months or less to live. He LOVED it so much and shared it with someone before making copies and lost his only copy.

        He wrote me for another copy. I hand wrote him a dozen. With each letter I send, I include at least one more copy. (I do not have easy access to a printer)

        He recently informed me that he has gone through all of the copies I sent. So, I have sent more and will continue doing so. It makes me so very happy to know he is getting so much injoyment from it. And so far, he is doing well with his ending days. Most of his stomach was removed, so his eating habits have had to change. Eat often, slow and chew well. So, I introduced him to mindful eating, to help pass his chewing time and benefit more from his food.

        Sorry ’bout that….got carried away …

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      • Carrying away is fine, dear Ren, when talking to me. I am glad to hear that your friends days are tranquil. I hope he is not suffering from physical pain.
        Mindful eating, incidentally, is a great part of our belief system. Again, great minds think alike!

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      • WOW! I have got to meet you one day, my lady! Our commonalities are great.

        My friend’s last letter to me stated he is feeling quite well. Only physical pain is when he eats too fast or does not chew well enough. Then he says he pays a dear price.

        Exhausted from all the family and friends who want to be with him before he passes. He loves it, yet it is very tiring for him.
        I suggested he have a Living Funeral. Then everyone can come and say to his face all the wonderful things to say and then be gone and let him die in peace.
        I explained it in a rather harsh way….but you get the point, yes?

        He lives with his 90 year old sister or other way around, in their old family home. She is amazing! Recently had a shoulder replaced. Healing well. Cannot raise arm far up and may never be able to. Instead of crying about what she can’t do, she is busy finding out what a one armed woman can do.
        She has secured an apt in town for when her brother passes. She is an amazing person. Gardens, cans, keeps house, sews all her clothes and makes pj’s for Bob, active in her church, etc. Simply amazing!

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      • She is indeed an amazing lady, and your friend is truly blessed to have her by his side.
        I do get the point of saying Goodbyes while still there; I just wouldn’t call it that, I guess.
        Have a wonderful day, dear Ren!

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      • Yes, you do speak true with NOT saying goodbye, cuz it is not the end….and we never do die, just the corporeal body stops functioning. Thank you again and giant squid hugs to ya!

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